So I have never written a blog or diary, so bear 🐻 with me. I have been dealing with depression for I don’t know how long and it’s only been recently that it has been brought to my attention that I am depressed, I do suffer with anxiety but not as much as depression. I also have anger issues which I think comes from the depression and anxiety. ( Small side note, I’m already fed up with writing out depression and anxiety so I will shorten it to D&A) so yeah my anger is a real issue and that’s why I started the journey to getting my self better.

Me and my partner live in the south of England in a small town, we have been together for about three years and we moved out of my parents house about six months after getting together. We moved out together when i was 21 and she was 18, I know quick, but we were younger and in love and we wanted to start a life together.

Now to get the bit you came here for. As a couple we don’t fight that often. We argue as much as any other couple. But when we argue I get very frustrated and I can’t seem to hold in my anger. (full disclosure I have never laid a finger on my partner in an aggressive way and I would never do that I think its disgusting thing to do, regardless of there gender) When my anger presents itself it tends to come out by punching a wall or slamming a door or even throwing things around the room (that no one else is in). Thats one part of the problem. I also have a tendency to go from 0-100 when a problem arises, for example if we are having a dispute and I feel that my partner has offended me or has mentioned something that I have done wrong I will then go straight to thinking that she doesn’t want to be with me anymore and I say that she is better off without me.

So in conclusion of this part our relationship is suffering because of my D&A, and that is not good in anyones books, I needed to sot it out.